The Reserves

One of the biggest mental struggles I think anyone tries to cope with when they are struck with a life altering event is the "how's" and "why's." I know I ask myself that question and I'm not sure I will ever stop. "How did this happen to ME?" "Why did this happen to me??" It's …

Mirror, Mirror

I did not realize that I have been writing this blog for over a year. So much has changed. So many unexpected turns. Although I have been through a lot, I still feel like I am waiting for an outcome; a finale or even the climax of the story. Which part of the book am …

Power of Love

I know, I know I am an 80's kid and I love it. Who knew that "Huey Lewis and the News" spoke so much wisdom? It is truly the power that makes the "world go 'round." Throughout this journey, the one thing that I have been offered consistently is love. Whether I wanted it or …

Heartbreaking/ Day 100

Let's start out with a big celebratory "Yay!" For day 100! For those of you who don't know, day 100 is an arbitrary marker that you are out of the most danger. Usually the largest complications of BMT appear before or shortly after this 100 day mark. Reactivation of viruses, graft versus host complications, other …